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Say Love

Say love! Say love! Oh love's gunna getch down! Say love! Say love! Oh love's gunna getcha down!

Momma told me what I should know, to much candy gunna rot your soul.
If she loves you let her go!
Cuz love only gets ya down.

SINGIN!

Sucking to hard on a lollipop, oh love's gunna getcha down~...

ClariDyg: Sleepy Cuddles?

After a few months....
THESE TWO STILL ROCK MY WORLD!
ClariDygg ~:heart:

Possibly.

Fri Nov 20, 2009, 8:00 PM
  • Mood: Hopeless
Today I struggled to stay happy, yesterday was rough. Really rough. Really found out that my family really doesn't care that I'm a living trainwreck on the inside. I can't get any help for my possible mental illness. Possible because I am not one to say I have one. I sleep less because I know my dreams during the day will hurt. They'll hurt a lot. I work myself during the day til i'm exhausted at night, there for I do not have to take sleeping pills, or have horrid dreams that leave me in a rigid and brokenhearted mood the following day.
I've also realized my Clausterphobia is getting worse. I was actually locked in the bathroom, the door jammed, Jess(~RedLink488) had to litterally break and pry the door open. To avoid anger from mum I calmed down enough to tell her to use something similar to a crowbar. We have a hammer. That saved the door. But I still got in trouble. I took all the blame so Jess wouldn't get in trouble. Thats when I was mocked for the fact I inflict damage onto myself. YES My depression has gotten worse enough where I break my previous morals and actually slash at the skin. Judge me, I don't care, I get that a lot. The fact I actually get slapped across the face tells me i'm not suppose to. No not by parents. actually my friend...
I actually recieve a cold shoulder too.
silence.
it makes my depression worse, but it's a punishment that i deserve. I know.

I also realized I might be allergic to my only comfort food. Thats carrot cake. Everytime I eat it, everything numbs up. Much like one who takes morphine. it also numbs up my emotion, my feeling. I'd eat it more... but we don't have any, we hardly get any.
but when I told that to my friend, she said it may be a possibility i may be allergic to it and didn't even know.
possibly because i'm not the one who can say if I truely am or not.
i dunno.

the only person i vent to is hardly ever on now, but i leave her alone. i'm just a horrible person who can't let go.

however, i have been getting better at hiding my sadness from everyone.
feigning happiness. it only works in real life. sorry...

~Lin

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Name: Lindsey.
NickNames: Demonz, Kitty, Lin, Kitkat.
Gender: I'mma GIRL.
What I should be: a Gay man!
Age: 16 years!

Interests: Art. Writing. VERY interesting stories. Making my characters non-sues. Animals. Improving art skills. Improving language skills. Improving spelling skills. Improving grammer skills. A certain friend :clap:

Likes: Red, Black, Blue, Silver, Purple. Albinos. Colorblind people, blind people, overly cute people, overly cute whores. Werewolves, my eclipse werewolf sub-species, non-twilight vampires Ones that actually go to the term of burning in the sun and don't sparkle, and are not sues. Hellsing. Wolves. Oblivion, Morrowind. Assassin's Creed. Farcry Instincts. Ecco The Dolphin. Gears of War. Goats. Wolves. Foxes. TIGERS. Leopards. My many friends. My second family. Loving abuse.

Dislikes: THE COLOR YELLOW. Homophobes. Math. SCHOOL. Spelling and grammer errors... Cannon couples (Mainly in Hellsing. I mean WTF people...) Mary Sues. Bad psycho people. Phoenix. Arizona. The heat. Rude people, and those who bully my friends.

Current favourite singer: MIKA Michael Penniman (has that adorable face, and cute voice, and.... well he runs around in his underwear. eWe

My Sister: ~RedLink488
Step Sister: ~Aquacat599
Grandma: ~EverybodysAmmaw

My man slave: =BiOzZ
My manslut: ~Daxter555

My Partner In Crime: ~Predatorspet
My owner: *tiamatrouge
My leader: *Hiita-hime

My pirate: *Willheart
My ninja: ~darkdragonfiend
My assassin: ~Letitallcomedown

Dev. Bro: ~Silent-Nightx
My Dragon: ~Angelic-Dragon

music lyrics that are currently in my favourites
All because of you!
I believe in angels.
Not the kind with wings,
no not the kind with halos.
The kind that bring you home!
When home becomes a strange place.
I'll fallow your voice,
all you have to do is
Shout it out! ~Rise Against. The Good Left Undone.

Momma told me what I should know.
To much candy gunna rot your soul.
If she love's you let her go!
Cuz love only brings you down.
Take a look at a boy like me.
Never stood on my own two feet.
Now I'm blue as I can be!
Oh love come get me down.
SING IT! ~ MIKA. Lollipop

How can I help it?
How can I help it?
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby.
Hello my baby.
Puttin' my life on the brink.
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over,
Should I look older,
just to be put on your shelf. ~MIKA. Grace Kelly.

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Actually I live in hell =_= not kidding.
  • Interests: I have no absolute interests at the moment.
  • Favourite movie: One Stormy Night, Dragonheart, The Last Templar, AVP, Dirty Dancing
  • Favourite band or musician: I have many
  • Favourite genre of music: All of em :3 I ain't picky
  • Favourite poet or writer: Erin Hunter
  • Favourite style of art: Fantasy, science fiction, other stuffs
  • Operating System: vista >:C
  • Skin of choice: um... the one I currently own?
  • Favourite game: Assassin's Creed, LoK, Far Cry, Mass Effect
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2, xbox, Gameboy DS lite
  • Personal Quote: The fucking cake is a fucking lie!
  • Tools of the Trade: This thing here :c

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~Hndz Nov 13, 2009, 1:14:39 AM
Thank you so much for the watch! c:

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~Firekitty488 Nov 13, 2009, 5:56:24 PM
Y'welcome!

--
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you.

Colonel of the ALTmal Army
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~SharinKyuu097 Nov 11, 2009, 2:49:33 PM
Thanks for the watch. :hug:

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"I am an assassin, born and raised in the shadows. My purpose guides my blade. The blood that is shed takes me one step further to reaching my goal. "

Altair. Ezio. Alex Mercer. *makes a face* Its too hard to pick.
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~Firekitty488 Nov 11, 2009, 4:20:36 PM
Of course. Didn't realize til earlier that I wasn't watching you xD
:hug:

--
But seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you.

Colonel of the ALTmal Army
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~SharinKyuu097 Nov 11, 2009, 5:57:18 PM
Its fine. :glomp:
Everything is all good now!!! ^-^

--
"I am an assassin, born and raised in the shadows. My purpose guides my blade. The blood that is shed takes me one step further to reaching my goal. "

Altair. Ezio. Alex Mercer. *makes a face* Its too hard to pick.
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